Writing can be like a relationship. What do I mean by this? I expect we all remember first date nerves. Wondering what to wear, would it go all right, being anxious, feeling sick and yet wanting to look our best.
Well writing to me brings out those nerves. Will it ever be good enough? What will people looking at it think? I can't do this it doesn't look good enough. In the past my instincts have been right and I ended up making fool of myself or worse still locking myself indoors not wanting to go out when someone wanted to go out with me as my nerves got the better of me.
This is what writing is like to me. If I am unsure of a piece I really don't want to send it out and face ridicule yet how will I know if I don't send the work out if it is going to be appreciated.
Yes I totally lack confidence in my ability.
Today as the negativity was beginning to take over a glimmer of light and hope came my way. After months of sending letters out to various newspapers I have been published in the News of the World. I didn't get the star letter but at least I got published.
So I am more determined to get to grips with my writing relationship. If you don't sow seeds they won't grow. Some seeds may lie fallow for ages but then the ideas will come and these in turn will flourish.
Best of luck to everyone.